idk

justin’s going to NC tomorrow to visit his mom till the 15th, i dont think he wants to come back, im nervous. my anxiety is driving me crazy. i cant stop crying and picking at my lips. i was supposed to go on this trip i of all people really need a vacation but when i got home from therapy it was too late his ticket was booked. i have this weird feeling that he will not be coming back. i just hope everything goes well cause i honestly cant take anymore. i just cant. im starting to feel nausous and im getting a headache, im trying to stay calm cause what if everything goes according to plan. everyone keeps saying hes not coming back but he told me yes that he would return…. hopefully it gets better.